Receiving my purple heart | Navy EOD stories
Welcome to my mental health story blog
Hey there! Thanks for stopping by. My name is Adam C. Nice to meet you! I am a former United States Chief Master Explosive Ordnance Disposal Technician who left the Armed Services in November 2012. I am a purple heart recipient with a 90% disability rating through the VA.
I have struggled with PTSD since OIF / OEF, and I have struggled with depression for almost my entire life.
I have had many close calls in my military career. Being a bomb disposal technician that disarmed IEDs, conducted and supervised hundreds of various diving mission from hobby lobbs to Mine Counter Measures, and jumped out of perfectly good airplanes/helicopters on a consistent basis. In my military stories section you will find stories from my military career.
Why I created this mental health blog.
I created this website to chronicle my struggles with my mental health issues. I hope that sharing my mental health stories will inspire others with PTSD, depression, or any other mental health issues to seek the help they need or at least become open to the realization that you can help yourself.
Asking for mental health help
Asking for help is one of the hardest things that I have ever done and if there is one thing you take away from this site I hope is that you are not alone. Everyone has problems, and I promise you, if you share your struggles, others will share theirs.
Mental health stories about battling PTSD and depression.
I have struggled with a low self-esteem and depression for my entire life. The whole reason I became a Navy EOD technician is that it sounded badass, and I wanted to do something cool.
I thought that if I joined the military I would be able to build up my self-esteem, and it worked for a very long time.
Sometime after the war, and all my many many close calls I reverted back to my old negative ways with a few new found mental survival skills that were amazing for disarming bombs, but extremely bad for dealing with the emotions that I was not even aware were inside of me, eating me from the inside out.
Why I created this mental health blog
Chronicling my struggles
I created this website to chronicle my struggles with my mental health issues. I hope that sharing my struggles will inspire others with PTSD, depression, or any other mental health issues to seek the help they need.
Asking for help is one of the hardest things that I have ever done and if there is one thing you take away from this site, it is that you are not alone. Everyone has problems, and I promise you, if you share your struggles, others will share theirs.
What will you find on this website
My mental health articles related to PTSD and depression from my perspective.
Stories, pictures, and video from my military career as an Explosive Ordnance Disposal technician.
My art therapy creations for show and sale.
Articles on the various things that keep me going. Check out my about me section to learn more about me.
Did you know disarming bombs is hazardous to your health?
With such a dangerous job comes many risks, mitigated through lots and lots of training. I had many close calls during my time in the military. I have had to check my own body to make sure I wasn't missing any body parts after a small detonation that happened right on top of me. The mental stress that is put on all of our soldiers and sailors is astounding. I cannot tell you their stories because I don't know them. I don't know how other EOD technicians dealt with the mental stress of willingly disarming roadside IEDs, but I survived by pretty much severing the connections in my mind that control emotions and accepted the fact that there was a real chance that I was coming home in a body bag or worse, permanently injured in some incredibly horrible ways.
Receiving my purple heart
You must have a guardian angel watching over you.
God must have protected you so you can do something great.
You lucky son of a bitch!
The day I received my purple heart.
The above quotes are just a few of the things my fellow EOD technicians & support personnel said to me after one of my purple heart award ceremony I at EODMU11 Whidbey Island.
I recently transferred from EODMU6 Charleston about a month and a half earlier, and most of the people had no clue what about my tour in Iraq.
The one particular memory I remember about this day was after the ceremony was over, and everyone had left.
I was going about my day doing various tasks while I was waiting to join a detachment/platoon. I was talking to SK1 who was in charge of the supplies for EODMU11. We had talked to one another a few times prior to the ceremony. ( It is always important to make friends with the people who can get you stuff ) He asked me about the purple heart, and I told him the story. He told me God must have protected you so you can do something great. I just laughed and shrugged it off or something, I can't really remember, but those words have stuck with me for a very long time.
I did end up saving someone's life on my next deployment, which I had not really thought of until just now. Was that it? It doesn't feel like it. I am hoping I can turn this site into something great that will help a lot of people, but I need to be able to fix myself first.
PTSD and Depression blog
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