Inner child healing really works to heal childhood trauma
Mental health stories | My first inner child meditation session was amazing.
Mental health story introduction
Hey everyone. Welcome to another one of my therapy session stories. Today I will be going over my first inner child meditation therapy. It was a very difficult and emotional session, and something I don't think I will ever forget. I was surprised at how easy it was to visualize the entire scenario, and how amazing I felt afterwords.
Even now as I am writing this, emotions are gurgling through my normal numb self.
FEELINGS I FELT IN THIS SESSION / WARNING
This session was rough. It stirred up A LOT of emotions that I didn't even know I had inside me. Here are some of them.
INNER CHILD EXPLAINED
The term inner child work has been brought up in my therapy sessions a few times, but pretty much went in one ear and out the other.
Fortunately something was nagging me to research the topic so I decided to look on youtube for a good explanation of what exactly the inner child work is all about.
I am not an expert in this area. I am just passing on the research that I have come across so far. I really like the way this video explained explained to so give it a watch.
INNER CHILD MEDITATION
After watching a few videos online, and having emotions well up, I thought I would talk to my therapist about it. During my last session she asked me if I wanted to try an inner child meditation. I curiously said yes, and off we went.
Side note; I have never really had any problems meditating when someone else is guiding me through it, but I really need to start working on it. It feels so powerful.
STEP 1 - BREATHING TO CALM THE MIND
First I was guided through some simple breathing techniques to calm my mind so I could better visualize what was going on.
STEP 2 - VISUALIZING AND STAYING PRESENT
After some deep breathing my therapist started asking me questions about what I was seeing.
I tried to visualize down to the point where I actually saw myself as a child but it just wasn't working. I think I was trying to hard.
Once I gave up on trying to get a pure visualization ( which was an obsessive act ) I just sort of let my mind be loose, and let the visualization sort of come to me while also staying present inside my body so I wouldn't dissociate from the experience. This worked incredibly well, and within a minute or so I was seeing my inner child for the first time.
STEP 3 - MEETING & DESCRIBING MY INNER CHILD
I visualized my inner child sitting sitting in a triangle formation with us.
My inner child?
I drew this months before my inner child session.
I am not gonna lie, it felt horrible seeing this visualization at first.
He was anywhere from 3 - 6 years old.
I couldn’t nail down the exact clothing he was wearing. It seems to be morphing into different versions of clothing I have from memories or pictures.
He had a darkness surrounding him.
He was slouched over cross-legged with his head down sitting on the floor.
I could feel his feelings
He felt alone
He was scared
He felt neglected
He felt unloved
THEN I FELT MY OWN FEELINGS
I felt guilt and sadness for neglecting him
I felt excited that this was working so well
I was fighting back tears as soon as I saw him, but I couldn't hold on, so I just let go.
I wanted to tell him I was sorry
I wanted to tell him it wasn't his fault
I wanted to tell him he was loved
I wanted to tell him I was going to take care of him.
I am crying as I write this.... * deep breath *
STEP 4 - COMMUNICATING WITH THE KID INSIDE ME
I tried to talk to him, but he would not respond. He just sat there looking at the floor with his hair in his face.
I tried to talk to him, but it felt like he was ignoring me which was a kick in the gut.
I sobbed out to my therapist that he was ignoring me, and my therapist needed to interject a bit to help me get back on track. This is after all just a visualization.
I asked him if he wanted to go with me to someplace safe where he would be safe. Reluctantly with his head still down he nodded a yes
THE SAFE PLACE FOR MY INNER CHILD
STEP 5 - TAKING HIM TO A SAFE SPOT
I took him to a beach in my memory. This was the place where I saw the ocean for the first time. I sat him in a lifeguard chair next a fishing pier.
His head was still down when I sat him in the chair
When he realized where he was he instantly perked up and looked around in awe.
I felt the darkness and his sadness melt away.
A calm washed over me like a finally getting to it's final resting place.
CONCLUSION - THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
After my therapy session I realized that I didn’t tell him any of the things listed above. As I was writing this I started to feel waves of sadness and guilt coming back. Then just as fast I realized I have him in a safe place where I can visit him anytime I want to so I started taking some deep breaths and quickly visualized the beach and I was right next to him. I apologized to him and poof I am was back to writing again feeling better than I did when I started writing this article.
Try to let the visualization come to you.
Take some deep breaths to calm your mind.
Don't obsess over the details of the visualization, it will only distract you.
Be prepared to experience some uncomfortable feelings.
Stay present in your body. I felt like that is where the majority of communication came from.
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