My name is Adam. I am just a normal guy from a small town ( of 500 people ) in southern Minnesota.
I am a former United States Chief Master Explosive Ordnance Disposal Technician who left the Armed Services in November 2012. I am a purple heart recipient with a 90% disability rating through the VA.
I have struggled with PTSD since OIF / OEF, and I have struggled with depression for almost my entire life.
I decided to quit my job because I never dealt with the stresses of being in an extremely dangerous job. On top of that I was conditioned through my childhood to block out all feelings which made me the perfect candidate to become an Explosive Ordnance Disposal technician, but it makes it really difficult to maintain relationships and is just a miserable way to live so I am trying to change!
No, I don't want money. If you like what you see please support me by leaving a comment on my posts. It will give me motivation to continue writing.
My primary goal for this blog is to help me through my struggles with PTSD and depression. I am using this platform as a type of art therapy that will hopefully help me work through various issues that I am struggling with.
All photographs in my therapy posts are taken while I am dictating the articles. If I see something interesting or I take a nice picture I like to share it
12 years in US Naval Special Operations
Rank achieved EODC (EWS/AW/FPJ) E7
Master Explosive Ordnance technician
Deepest dive on record - 175 Ft Arabian sea MK16
Highest free-fall jump w combat equipment 15,000 Ft
Deployments - 6
SCUBA Diving Supervisor
MK 16 diving supervisor
HRST / CAST Master
Real IEDs disarmed - Way to many
Ships sunk - USS Oriskany | The USS Guadalcanal
Robot Operator - Talon | Packbot | RONS
Abusive negative inner voice
Pushing away relationships
Alcohol abuse - 1 year sober! :D
Back problems - Thanks to my HAMMOCK!
Currently in EMDR and talk therapy.
Cutting / Burning
Being open about my problems